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I'm sure there's a good, or @ least a decent explanation for this, but.. golly.. 1022pm on a school night? Pills are in. the fade is imminent. I'm not sure when I got to bed last night, but I got up thisAM wondering if I'd managed to get the post up before I headed off for slumberland. I had Ariel in chat a bit earlier and asked her; it turned out that I had and she put a comment on for me. So.. why AM I up, still? Really, a good question. Meanness, I guess. I get in a mood, tonight's a fine example when I simply feel I MUST get some spew out. But I've started so late and I have not a clue what I think I want to get to or out. Oh well.. the exercise does me some good, I think. It's going to be Thu in the AM, the week has slid by quickly and pretty easily. I need to keep the tenuous grip I've got on the grading task.. oh please, I'm certain school is NOT what I want to be thinking about on the way to bed. I've got a cuppa really excellent coffee. Um, I can see that I'm going to hafta kinda dash to bed so Jen will quit needling me about not being in bed. I know she's got my best interests @ heart, still, that doesn't keep me from clenching my jaw when she speaks and that's not conducive to sleep. Oh well, it's always something. I'll try to get the cup drained and climb under the mask before elevenpm. Sigh. I will very probably toss the last few sips and get under the mask JUST to get that.. yeah. I think that's what's got to happen.
Can we talk?
Oh gods, this can’t be good.
Gonna be Fri in the AM.
What’s your point?
Don’t be hostile, I was merely establishing the date.
Okay, excuse me, but you hafta know I’ve got a bad bad feeling about your opener.
Work w/me Ken.
I’m sure I don’t want to.
Right.. well, open Media Player and kinda collect your wits.
I am soooo not looking forward to this.
What are you afraid of?
Fear itself.
Okay, well, I’ll let ya slide, it’s nearly 930pm and none of the getting ready stuff is done.
Coffee’s nearly ready.
Good, put a chillin’ quarter in and get your costume.
Done.
You still look worried.
You like crazy a bit too much to suit, um, me.
Ah, it’s kinda no big deal; I think we’ve all had plenty of time to get used to it.
To some degree, I suppose.
Don’t fret; I’m not going to push, it’s about bedtime.. and I don’t want to think about school, maybe that’ll work itself out overnight.
So what kind of head game are you playing?
Look, maybe I’m mistaken, but it seems like we used to be able to sit and really let the stream run.. and now, not so much.
Yeah, I’ll admit to getting spooked.
Um, so.. um.. like I said, I’m not pushing, imean I don’t .. but what are you afraid of? Where’s the spook?
I.. I.. I don’t want to harp on it, but I think the change, if there was one, came in the ..
What?
You know.
Hmm. So there’s no getting around it?
I dunno, I guess that’s the best argument for getting back into talk therapy.
I see you fetchin’ out or up the Ambien.
You see that, do ye?
Yeah. Well, I’ll support the therapy thing; I know that you’ve sorta lost the connection w/Glenda.. I guess you think it would be too weird w/George..
Man, I.. you know I tried to get a reading from him, like right after.
Yeah, but that’s not .. I don’t know how to do this w/out pressing, man.
I know, it’s sorta my thing, I guess.. imean it’s like if someone’s not asking the tough questions I can’t begin to approach the, um, topic.
I could do it, be the tough questioner, y’know.. and I’d kinda like to be. I think that’s a big part of what I was talking about, um, the maybe reminisce of or about when we could stream more easily.. freely.
You know, tho’.. here’s a lot of..
Hurt. Yeah, I know. I smell it, the salt breeze.
And that’s where you want to go, for real?
Maybe not. Maybe it’s the crust crumbly crash finally easing in.
Sort of an oxymoron to describe a crash as easing in, isn’t it?
Well, when you can see it a mile away and it seems to be rolling up slowly..
Landslide.
Okay.
Glandslide?
I’ll let you pick; I know that there’s that question about feelings and chemistry.. genuine ness as you I we sometimes always say. Well, it’s nearly 1030pm.
Gee aint it funny, how time slips away?
You and Willie Nelson.
I put the Amben in. I was wondering when you would.
I, um, went off for a little distractive.. read.
Yeah, I was there.
So.. whaddaya think about posting this li’l bit?
Well, I’m for it, of course. Maybe you can fish in a tough questioner.
Put it @ both sites?
I s’pose, but I think the Goo blog is kinda superfluous. Maybe it’s like txmi sed and y’need to put some tags or interests in to..
Whatever. Do the ed run if you’re goin’ to.
Yeah, I’ll do that.
I got A Muse opened.. still think iota do both sites.
Sure, put the same clip @ both, see if you get any hits @ either.
And then say good night, Ken
G’nite, Ken.