All About the Work

I longed to cup her face.. imagining my thumbs on her chin, fingers along the jaw, earlobes between my index and middle fingers.. as I stepped in and
and viot
and watched her eyes close in acceptance
....
This WILL take some getting used to; one of my favorite affected stylisms is the one I call the anticonvention. NO capitals or punctuation! And where I would have used an apostraphe, like for a contraction, I use a period. There's a story there, of course. I fished this scrap out of the archives because I'd mentioned it tangentally to my lone reader, in another forum, exampling how my beloved Tess was aware of my feelings (whoops, nearly said pain) and how that found its way into her writing.

timing is everything in this biz thus ensues a biggo dose of funny how shit works out in two or three part narrative harmony
viot the hell is goin. on here um rchere gettin. set i s.pose for my first session w/my therapist my appt is for twopm i.ll go in haffan hour early to do initial paperwork it.s rc 1255pm on 9-26-05 so um i reckon i.ll be leaving the house innabout haffan hour the lady therapist is geographically near i am quite damn anxious thank you but disinclined to take the chill pill oh yeah i am inclined to take a sample of my litter anniguess that.s mainly a manifestation of vain ken or maybe i.m doing it so jen.ll be bugged s.more when i come in from the dr.s office totin. my fun bag either way it.s completely selfish and ibetcha most of us realize therein lies the root the fruit of my psychic distress and marital discord i am a very selfish fellow
-ring ring-
aww that.s sweet w/her exquisite sense of timing honey JUST phoned in a li.l task for me to do for her praise God from whom all blessings flow even tho. she had to tell me viot to do and how to do it because i was able to do that tiny thing coming on cosmic cue as it were or was i feel more like the nice guy i purport to be
let.s dash to the dr.s office i got there am in fact rcthere and buzzin. like a maniac the manic.s gonna get in the way f.sure i prob.ly shoulda taken the chill pill JUST so i could present m.self coherently oh well them.s the breaks well ken y.know there.s still time and the drugs are in your pocket yeah but i kinda didn.t want to y.know skew my presentation w/medication whew 318pm i.m outta the dr.s office the manic chat rushed my hour away prob.ly 45 min anyhow it passed quickly and i.m looking forward to fourpm on 10-2 a tue when i can see the lady therapist again

hey i made it in for my first visit w/my lady therapist. i was in the throes of manic motormouth and the time passed soo quickly and i have only the vaguest recollection of viot we talked about tho' i think i was mainly accounting my grief and glee associated w/getting gre goo up.. it's all about the work he sed laffin' nervously.

meanwhile it.s payback time the manic bubble.s burst and i.m weeping @ the library oh well them.s the breaks it.s sort of a self-fulfilling prophecy anticipating and counting on the cycling psychosis i um don.t want to make excuses but explanations are JUST rationalizations for inexcusable behavior so here sits ken w/a pen in his hand when i get the li.l girls out of the library and get my sorry ass home it.ll be past time to have clothes coffee and lunch ready for the morrow annibetcha i resort to the sleeping pill to ensure prompt slumbers prob.ly sobbing under my mask before i get the nod


oh tired doesn.t describe me it was bubble nite converting data to dots and that went well but i wouldn.t didn.t medicate by 724pm i.ve been to and from the library w/hailey for a bitto hi speed net fun yep got stoked on tessian contact and a biggo dose of funny how shit works out in two or three part narrative harmony let.s presume the winding thread starts w/me telling geebee about tellin. the el tee about katy ah that.s too cryptik even for me hmm el tee.s the lady therapist and a large portion of the first visit was my gleefully manic account of hewing gre goo which i.d introduced as my latest and greatest attempt to sabotage my marriage the tag line for the telling of the tale wasoris it.s all about the work and to example the point i closed the account ah timing is everything in this biz my finish was .splainin. the katy portion of the obsess and I cited a bitto text where i described my fingers twitchin. in the parkin. lot


i wanted to mention a or the scary compulsion the katy nearly overwhelmed me today standing in the parking lot saying pm goodbyes it was all i could do not to grab tess. face w/both hands and whew it wasn.t especially fleeting the urge persisted interminably after i recognized it prob.ly for a couple of minutes my fingers twitched as i longed to cup her face imagining my thumbs on her chin fingers along the jaw earlobes between my index and middle fingers as i stepped in and
and viot
and watched her eyes close in acceptance
how terribly presumptuouss
yes and i.m thinking sumptuous
i.m thinkin. terrible this is the stuff of nosebleeds melted brain goo oozing from ears and nose if my lips touch hers i.m afraid my marriage will dissolve
oh really why izzat
aw y.know that forsaking all others clause
oh shit ken if there.s room in your marriage bed for obtess and chaise i.m pretty sure the covenant will withstand the corporeal contact
ouch that.s treason and you fuckin. better keep the damn pen on the page for a while and yeah this is way much better than the untend

ah timing is everything in this biz my finish was .splainin. the katy portion of the obsess and i cited a bitto text where i described my fingers twitchin. in the parkin. lot and the subsequent reaction when those lines were read a day or two later .cause y.know or y.oughta i couldn.t not press tess to read .em so the deeply troubled celebrated author penned a poig no um poing where.s my dictionary hmm lessee i told geebee about telling the el tee about katy and showing tess my description of bringin. twitchy fingers to cradle and frame that face REMEMBER Y.ALL it.s all about the work so when tess read the appointed portion oohing and laughing in the right spots she said oh i.ve got to steal this and yep the cradled face w/the fingers and thumbs as i.d lined .em showed up in a vigorli scene .cause really it.s about the work wait wait so rc this pm at the library while i was waiting for the reply ding i looked over a note nam sent and i.d opened thisAM wellemmetellya buddy i nearly wet my.elf when i found a mention that tess had worked some of my ranger spew into the price alt end giving in

Yeah, um.. there probably are too many cryptiK references to ideas and ideations that those of you not wearing my pants simply can't fathom. My best advice is ASK.


peace and hope
-km-