Sunday, January 25, 2009
wow.. JUST in case
so.. i haven't kept up w/my G blog.. sue me. Hang on .. i need to figure out how to cope w/format.. Okay, i'll start using @ least conventional capitalization. I decided to do a quick update JUST in case txmichelle comes looking. I think I can be forgiven for not remembering what I've posted in the relative here two years ago. I didn't keep up the postage because .. well, because. I've prob'ly already lost my intended audience of one. But IF txmich IS still around, I'd like to say that I'm sittin' around @ 135AM in a manic phase that "surprised" me. I'd try to medicate it away but, as ibetcha you'd attest, mania is like psychic crack. I mentioned that I'd self-diagnosed myself. I haven't gone looking for the date but I'm inclined to think it was end of July '05. The ultrarapid cycling was sort of a tipoff that I needed some serious help and, praise God from whom all blessings flow, I sought and got some. Yup, it's a struggle to hang onto somethinglike sanity even w/the guidance of highly trained and trusted medics. I'd say you have NO idea, but I'd bet you do. Anyhow, I'm interested in your perspective and your "journey." I reckon I'll bookmark your site and read back a bit. I set up a LiveJournal thing about a year before I had my much chronicled and very public meltdown. I found YOU about a relative hour ago when I was typing into my.. I guess you'd call it a journal, but it's not the LJ thing. One of those sychronistic things where something I put on the screen sent me to Google where I searched, um.. lessee.. it was "bipolar funs." I don't think I mentioned that after my self-diagnosis a couple of highly trained professionals concurred that I was in need of serious help. It's been a long strange trip.. seems like forever and the really TOUGH part is coping w/the realization that it's NOT going to end. EVER.
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Hi. I'm glad to have a new follower. Welcome. I would be a fine one to critize format...I am learning how to do things on blogspot one at a time. But more importantly, I think blogging has therapeutic value and the hell with what it looks like! it's what you have to say...of vent...or rant...or share,etc.
ReplyDeleteSorry you're in the middle of a manic high. Those are tough. My solution is to find something creative to do as my creativity really opens up whe in that state.
My journey started in 1993, at llleast that was when I was diagnosed. Undergoing ineffective treatment until 2002, I have had quite a ride. Done some wild things, tried suicide (almost successfully but someone found me in time all four times). I had a very promising career in an oil and gas company legal office which I finally had to admit I couldn't do because of the stress. I left in '95 and tried to work part time but couldn't do that either. On SSI since 1999.
Glad to hear you found some help. FYI I have seen numerous doctors in Kingwood (also the Woodlands and Grand Junction CO) and the best one I found (since 2002) is Krishna Sunkureddi, MD. He really has a handle on the medicines and is not afraid to try something new. AND HE LISTEN S TO ME. It's really unique to find a doc that actually realizes I probably know myself better than he! He also is frequently doing studies of different meds and lectures to other psychiatrists. In other words, I think he is the most qualified Pdoc I have encountered...and i've encountered a few in hospitals. I've been hospitalized too many times to mention - during the 1995-2002 period. I also firmly believe treatment is incomplete without a good therapist. I see mine once a week. Having a Ph.D. is the preference since they are much more knowledgeable.. I'VE been with Dr. Erica Burden,Ph.D, at Healthpartners since 2002. She listens, make observations and then helps ME figure things out. We did something called Behavior Modification therapy which is a fancy way of saying you learn what your triggers are, how to cope with them, and different ways to conduct your life so that you achieve some sort of stability. Sure I still have ups and downs and I rapid cycle. But I'm armed with knowledge and have a pdoc which is awesome in adjusting my meds. .
Keep blogging --- I'll be following. I'm adding you to my list of blogs I follow.
I have a theory that we really are blessed once we use our imagination and intelligence to cope with this disorder. We are so much more capable, intelligent, imaginative, creative, and sensitive than the rest of the world. Hope to hear from you soon. By the way my email is txmichele77@yahoo.com if you should ever want to write privately to me. Michele
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ReplyDeleteMichele - see I was right, one 'l' - This'll be interesting. Will you get my return comment or shall i go to the yahoo spot? So, not simply a Houstonite but a Kingwoodie (that's sort of a derogatory term I use for the folk i follow in and out of the burg on my commute). When i did talk therapy (only about eight visits)I was in Burden's office chatting it up w/hmmm some statuesque blonde.. i'll remember her name innabit.. Stankowitz? maybe. I've got stories abouut me and the LT (lady therapist). My med gal is in the Woodlands, Lordy Bosquez. I don't see her nearly often enough and she's uncanny w/her insight. I may try "your guy" when next i hafta get insurance approval to continue treatment. I think we have a LOT of catching up to do. I can be reached at sirkayem @ either gmail or yahoo. I'd send you to my LJ, but.. well it's not like i wouldn't want you to see me @ A Muse (heh, yet another funny coinkydinky), I'm simply not sure if you'd WANT to see me there. I set it up to commune w/a buncha gals I call the "slashettes".. they write fan fic.
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Somehoow I think I missed this or I've lost it by another knotch...Knew Bosquez as my pdoc whwen I was in the Woodlands 2001-2 txmichele77@yahoo
ReplyDeleteand as it turns out, Lordy has terminated her association w/my insurer SOOOO, i've made an ppt w/"your guy" relative next Friday!
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